Circle of Trust

So bite your tongue
You're not the only one
Who's been let down

- Duncan Sheik, Bite Your Tounge

Dissapointment is a pact where we must sign with devil while his huge nostrils and sharp edged horns dangle a few centimenters in front of our face. Encounters with them is so unavoidable that we should put them in the league of universal certainty together with life, death, and tax. There has been conversations about the male masculine-feminist rewarding behavior formulation, debate on obsession and every other emotionally charged word, and collective scrutiny against the devil. There must be, or at least there should be arrangements to smooth things down here. The belief on religion through supernatural channels is too dogmatic from a liberal perspective. On the other hand, beliefs on law is unacceptable since it is a man created product. A statement where most sceptics will unanimously reach a concensus in split seconds. There are other major things that we could decide in split seconds. It's how you face looks, Alex Todorov calls it snap judgement.

A poke on the back the other day was surprisingly fun. I kept smilling the whole day albeit the frustration on grasping international relations theorist. The ideas were grand, abstract, well-elaborated, and had high order syntax. However, they oppose the scientific method of hypothetical testing because they are purely ideas based on philosophical leanings and objective analysis that are very difficult to test. I think that's what makes it more interesting. Having everything able to be rigidly controlled and precisely explained is unappealling. Motivation tends to reach a plateau on such pre-established movements.

I'm having a need for stability as preservation had eluded in recent thoughts. Things must be deeply organized and easy to access using an effective mechanism. The Earth could perform predictable rotations for balancing the distribution of light, although astronomers might have overemphasize the importance of a another distant planet. Sadly, we may also remember the other things we had previously held close but have lost or experienced a deteriorating course due to fallacious reasoning. I rarely dwell on those occurences. But, I get piss off for the initial responce. Swarming away those negative temper is really aromatheraphy for the disturbed individual. I need to be Bruce Wayne again, Batman is overarching my idealism these days.

P.S.: Bono said, "Jesus, Jew, Mohammad is true. We are all sons of Abraham."

P.S.2: I cried twice, erm trice on that occasion. See, Mom. You should have let me played with G.I. Joe's .

The man with an axe shouts "Timber!!"

The heatwave attack is starting to show it's evil seeds. Now, you must multiply the walking distance by twice when taking Queensland's sun ray into consideration. Add the middle point interval of the travel route if somatic physical complaints or disturbing psychological effects shows elevating symptoms. When both are atypically absent from occurring then subtract by half of the journey's length. However, on convinient rides with private car simply divide the original distance by half. On the other hand, bus rides only get discounted by a quarter of the total journey.

Well, today I walked from home to uni. I was really cranky due to the fact that my skin were suffering from amazing itching and almost got into a staring feud with a innocent passerby because of the sudden heigthened irritable mood. Luckily, today no mental blockage - as opposed to yesterday's ineffective cognitive scatterment- surfaced into this well-handicapped brain. Lack of homeostasis regulation must be why it was a difficult tour.

Political correctness was the immaculate theme today. Although, some often argue that the jargon merely implies presenting thoughts that are framed systematically to put one's own perpective in an advantaged position, I believe it is a basis for moral control in social conventions. There are these predetermined existing rules that we know about without having the rights or even opportunities to differ against them. Examples are "Don't intrude other beliefs.", "Never betray someone who has confide in you", and one of my personal favorites "There are things in life that are more worth losing than others.". The last statement clearly advances the need for sound judgement (what is it we may afford to lose while taking the vast implications into consideration), rational-induction thinking (by losing this specific variable the gains associated must be higher), and socio-emotional sensitivity (whether this loss contribute to the fluctuation in relationship of self/others and what damage control is neccesary to avoid large scale cost). To apply that concept let me give you a self assessment case study.

Political correctness: I would rather lose a potential lover than a close friend.

Whereas,

Sound Judgement: Losing a friend is like cutting down teak tree (translation: pohon jati). It's takes destructive effort not to mention regrowing them back takes tens of years. Perservation only make it more solid.

Rational-Induction: Remember the key word potential, it is not a state of certainty. Meanwhile, friendship represent a stable condition despite of major life changes and differences in opinions.

Socio-emotional Sensitivity: Very bad outcomes is stereotypical in this situation. There will be a lot of disappointed people most of them pointing the finger at you. At the same time you have to face your friends resentment while also maintaining a deeper connection with your new partner. It's just to complicated.

I know guys, this is a very shallow, stupid, unscientific theory. Sleep disorder and fractions of million thoughts behind my head forced me to post this. By the way, let's fuck my theory. It's outdated and inhibits a lot of my wishes. Just pray so I don't end up like Paul Robinson a couple of days ago.