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Panic attack.

My heart is going 60 miles an hour, experiencing respiratory difficulties, the head feels like a blimp, coordination problems as I type, blood quickly running through my veins, and all the other symptoms simultaneously activating itself. Panic attacks are things I seldom battle with. My mental reflexes for unfortunate events most often are depression and insomnia. I'm not trained enough to fight this uncanny physiological responses. Should I fight it, disown it, ignore it, rub it in, distract it, or follow it?

This is a shit post. I'm supposed to calm my nerves down and not write nonsense. I am obliged to finish the research paper which has caused all this commotion. Damn, I need handles, chairs, and pillows. Most of the status quo has evaporated into self-engaging activities. The newcomers are reachable but geographically distant. Stop complaining, bitch. There's work to do. I'll call some more to relax this thought. Grip me somebody, please.